Saturday, December 31, 2011

Goodbye December :)

Happy holidays people!

A warm greeting from me to you. Its warmth is good enough to ease the coldness of the season.

Anyway, its been a while since the last time I posted my last blog. I've busy in school lately and things seems so confusing. Though I am in my Christmas break, I still have to work with project, and of course house hold chores. But still, I celebrated my Christmas happily. Ain't I?

This season is field with love and joy, and I don't want to have drama like last years'. However, things do not flow in a way I wished it to be. Though my Christmas isn't that bad unlike before (no, last year is worst), there are people who dont want me to really be happy (bad bad bad).

"I better watch out, I better not cry..."

I should have listen to Christmas carols. Sometimes, they warned me of what would happen. I should have watch out with people who tell the truths and lies. Who show fantasy or reality. So in the end, I should not cry. History really repeat itself, and I do not know why it happened to me. I've been suffering from heart break last year, and now, I am regretting because of my stupidity. I am really stupid :)) Anyway, it doesn't matter. Good memories still dominate my mind. But I am really upset and hurt. But I am still thankful for a good dream. I am trying to be positive, so I won't be affected much of you doings. Yet, you are again in negative side for me. Sorry....

"Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day, You gave it away..."

Hey! Hey! Hey! Ain't that true? If you read my last year's December posts, You'll know it. I've been singing that song before Christmas break falls to this person. Just fooling around, and yet this person said, "It wouldn't happen again." You know how stupid I am, I believe with those words. Those words that seems so serious. What am I expecting? I dunno. (Hoho) I am just counting too much with that. And honestly, I am still holding with that word, though I know i fell off the ground already, with out someone who's waiting to catch me. No! this person caught me, but not to help me stand again, but for me to feel greater pain. Haha. I am not bitter, mind you, I am just saying how do I feel...

I dunno why things went this way, and I dont want to think much of the answers. I can be as numb as before if i will, and i can be as sweet as what i really am.

But either way, I am happy..happy to see the true colors of reality, to know that i am stupid and i know now how not to be again, and to prove every little thing in you..

Thank you December... and welcome 2012...Great change will come..and new year will mark this changes :)