Saturday, December 31, 2011

Goodbye December :)

Happy holidays people!

A warm greeting from me to you. Its warmth is good enough to ease the coldness of the season.

Anyway, its been a while since the last time I posted my last blog. I've busy in school lately and things seems so confusing. Though I am in my Christmas break, I still have to work with project, and of course house hold chores. But still, I celebrated my Christmas happily. Ain't I?

This season is field with love and joy, and I don't want to have drama like last years'. However, things do not flow in a way I wished it to be. Though my Christmas isn't that bad unlike before (no, last year is worst), there are people who dont want me to really be happy (bad bad bad).

"I better watch out, I better not cry..."

I should have listen to Christmas carols. Sometimes, they warned me of what would happen. I should have watch out with people who tell the truths and lies. Who show fantasy or reality. So in the end, I should not cry. History really repeat itself, and I do not know why it happened to me. I've been suffering from heart break last year, and now, I am regretting because of my stupidity. I am really stupid :)) Anyway, it doesn't matter. Good memories still dominate my mind. But I am really upset and hurt. But I am still thankful for a good dream. I am trying to be positive, so I won't be affected much of you doings. Yet, you are again in negative side for me. Sorry....

"Last Christmas, I gave you my heart. But the very next day, You gave it away..."

Hey! Hey! Hey! Ain't that true? If you read my last year's December posts, You'll know it. I've been singing that song before Christmas break falls to this person. Just fooling around, and yet this person said, "It wouldn't happen again." You know how stupid I am, I believe with those words. Those words that seems so serious. What am I expecting? I dunno. (Hoho) I am just counting too much with that. And honestly, I am still holding with that word, though I know i fell off the ground already, with out someone who's waiting to catch me. No! this person caught me, but not to help me stand again, but for me to feel greater pain. Haha. I am not bitter, mind you, I am just saying how do I feel...

I dunno why things went this way, and I dont want to think much of the answers. I can be as numb as before if i will, and i can be as sweet as what i really am.

But either way, I am happy..happy to see the true colors of reality, to know that i am stupid and i know now how not to be again, and to prove every little thing in you..

Thank you December... and welcome 2012...Great change will come..and new year will mark this changes :)

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Who are you?

Our love story is already written.

I haven't seen you with these eyes,
But you lie inside my heart.
I haven't heard you laugh,
But you always draw this smile.

 You haven't lay your hands on,
But I feel the warmth in my soul,
I'll gave all my time to be wasted,
Just for you to come. I'll wait.

Where are you? Where have you been?
Why destiny gives you by fate?
By chance, we have not met yet,
But by love, why are we together?

You are my tomorrow,
But I still live in the past..
Who are you that is given by God?
Will you be the one I'll live for last?

Who are you? Tell me you name.
Engrave it in the deepest part of me.
Take me with you, in our dreams,
Take me away from reality.

I don't know you, but my heart knows.
At the right time sun will kiss the moon.
And the earth will revolve just to see you,
But then, Who are you?

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Words from 18

You give me name,
though I gave you pain.
You lend me love,
though all I did is crying.
You feed me, protect me,
though I am stubborn,
You give your best,
just to see me grow.

Now, I become who I am now,
because of you and everyone that surrounds
Personality changes,
Character turns new,
Not in a way you always wanted to.
I ask for some favor,
You give me doubts,
I ask for freedom,
I gain no trust.

What would be my life in your "No's "?
I want to fly, but I am tied.
Is it me you that you cared?
Or the name I have that you gave?
Is it my life that matters?
Or every dime that I might spend?

All I want is to explore,
Not inside this four corners of the floor.
All I want is some time for me,
And your trust and support, Please?

I know you're worried about tomorrow
You cared for coming years,
But those worrying cause you doubts,
Those doubts that sealed us.
We can't be the person that we wanted,
Because we always think of the expectations you set...

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Let thy love be mine

Let thy love be mine
A sonnet

Let thy eyes lend to the man who kneeled,
Let thy ears hear all words he had spoken,
Let thy hands touch the heart need to be healed              ,
Only thy love fixes the hopes that had broken
Be with me my darling for I am true
I will hand you the mountains, hills, and all the flowers bloom
And the sun, stars, moon without argue.
 Bear with me, your future Groom
You will fit in the precious circle I will offer
You will wear the whitest cloth; shining and shimmering               
It will be the start our never-ending forever
But let thy love be given first, I’m begging
So our story will start, will continue, you and I,
And let thy love grow each day, no lie

Shall I be?

Shall I be?
A sonnet

Shall I be a wanderer of your love?
And walk the whole town just to have a glance,
I will seek for you up to heaven above,
And there I see another chance.              
To have you beside me is nothing but a dream
And every night I sleep it’s your face that I see,
 I wake up with morning dews that gleam,
Walking on the shore, enjoying the sea
Shall I be your prince and give you a kiss?
For you to know that I am the man you need.
Your knight in shining armor; I’ll give you ease.
Soon it will end; and I’ll see the reality that hid.
Shall I be with God and asked him to be with you?
When destiny falls, and reality will be new

Saturday, September 3, 2011

For Four and More :)


September 02, 2007

There was a guy who I never ever though would be closed to me. A guy that I was not going with or I never thought that I would call "best friend". We became best of friends for the reason I knew before, for the guy that I once liked, his classmate, and for the girl he admired, which was my classmate. We were only high school that time. Whenever we had problems with them, we always open to each other, and then, I could say that moments start our "Friendship".

September 02, 2011

Four years had passed now, and we are still strong. We are still holding on with each others hands. You are my treasure, as years passed by, you get even more expensive. But then you are priceless. You are one of the best gift that I received from Him. You are not perfect, but those imperfections created marks in my life. We've been together for a long time, and still counting for more. Even though you'll literally leave the country it doesn't mean that it will end our friendship, but another test for us that we should pass. Distance apart is not a hindrance for us to get closer, but a best reason to be stronger. I could not wish for more when it comes to you, I could not demand with time for I enjoy every moment with you.

Nathaniel "Epz" Inosanta
Nathaniel "Epz" O. Inosanta is his name, my dearest best friend who never turn his back on me. He is always there whenever I need someone, to make me feel happy, surprised, appreciated, and special. 
Epz, thank you! thank you for making me smile always. You never fail to do that. Those simple magics you present just to cast all this grudges in me. You just not witness the negatives in me, but you also see my positives. Thank you because you accepted me for who I am. You have this long patience for stubborn, moody, and childish best friend. Thank you for your understanding. You are the most open-minded. You tried to look all the angles of misunderstanding, and not exceeding in 24 hrs, we are OK again.

Sorry for all arguments we had for the pass 4 years, but I know we even know each other deeply because of all those little fights. Sorry for making you disappointed sometimes with the decisions I made, but still you continue to support me. You always guide me, helping me out to conclude a decision to make, you are always there whenever I need opinions and suggestions.

Kharly "Epz" Tebia
And for more years that we will be best of friends, I am still be your company in this roller coaster of life. I will still be your critic in all the things you asked. I'll be your joker, your shoulder, you diary. I can be anyone or anything, but you cannot push me to be. Because I will always be "Kharly" that you accepted. And for more years, I know I will change, and you too, but then, I hope and I know we could cope up with it. I know that those changes will be the reason of misunderstandings. And I know, you will always be "Nath" that I used to laugh with, to mall with, and to cry with. 

Thank you my dearest best friend. You are not just one of my friends in the circle, you are one of the family, my brother, who used to protect me, like my father who always advise and guide me, and like a boyfriend that makes me special. 

We might not celebrate our 4th year together, I know that we are grateful of this day!

Happy 4th anniversary Epz!

I Love You this BIG! :)

Monday, August 29, 2011

Awesome is Romantic: A poem


True love waits, I faithfully believe,
Love is always in place, the way I live,
And patiently waiting for this girl I admire,
The girl that I've never seen, even in a glance.

I've searched the world, just to look for a face,
The face that will draw her name in my heart,
the face that even in my dreams I've never sight.
And wishing upon the stars, to be with her at night.

I'll cross the ocean if I have to,
I'll move the mountains apart just to see you,
And I'll give my everything my love,
just to have the my precious one.

I've learned my lessons from the past,
to all the love I had and did not last,
and I turned out waiting for you my dear,
So please bear with the guy in jeans.

If I could only see you in fantasy,
I'll do the best magic, just wait for me.
And I'll leave the reality behind,
And be with my happiness above the clouds.

And at night you are with me,
You're warm body will make me sleep,
and in the morning the sun rise,
You're still with me and your warm love.

And together, we will walk on the shore,
Holding you tight in the scene I adore,
I love you this much, so never ever let go,
Even if I haven't met you at all.

Pinch me, I might be dreaming,
Of someone who isn't existing,
But I know someone is really meant for me,
And I will never get tired to wait

-Captain Awesome Jr. 

It is for you, my dear bestfriend. And for your love that is so pure and true, for your heart that is brave and strong. You never ever surrender just to find the girl that you could say "YOURS" :) And I will always be here for you, your dearest best friend, the most  supportive one, and you always count with. ^^, 

Friday, August 19, 2011

Good Night

Sleep and never be awaken,
Rest and never be bothered.
The world is to harsh for you to witness,
let be the  face of reality be your dreams.

Sleep and preserve your life,
let the moon and the stars protect you at night.
Let the clouds embrace you tight,
and give them a good night smile.

Sleep and forget the hurt,
rest your body from all madness.
Peace is never in silence,
but in forgiving and forgetting what has been damaged.

Sleep solemnly my dear,
and never afraid to face the morning.
Days may be dark for you,
but in night you will see the light, so soon.

Sleep and soon be awaken,
never be bothered of the upcoming days
the world is too harsh for you; be safe,
and let your dreams come true; its never too late

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

to my dearest 18th birthday

July 11, 2011, Monday
11:48pm – 12:31pm

       It’s been a while since the day that you sent me a letter, a letter for my birthday. And now, writing on the same interface, I am about to tell you the things in me that I sometimes forgot to say or kept inside my mind.

       Sabi nila hindi magandang nagbabasa ng mga letters or stories from a poetic person, why? Kasi masyadong nagiging catchy sa emotions ng receiver yung mga sinusulat niya. But then, not all the time. I received a one emotional/ inspirational letter from a dearest friend. Hindi siya poet pero nakuha nia emotions ko. Yet, that letter is very remarkable to me. :)

       We’ve been friends for so long and I can’t even count on how far we will go. Distance separated us, but never our friendship, like what I used to say whenever one of us is sad or depressed. Isn’t it strange? Malayo ka, malayo din ako. Bihira lang magkita pero akala mo araw araw lang magkasama. Hindi man literal pero kung mag chismisan sa FB or sa phone (iba na naka plan), kala mo araw-araw nating nakikita ang ginagalawan ng bawat isa. Pero, hindi natin maiwasan ang pagkakaroon ng gap sa ilang mga bagay bagay. But it doesn’’t matter at all. Hindi naman yun ang sukatan nang care, love, and friendship. Normal lang naman ang gap pero hindi ang magkalimutan. Pero mangyayari pa kaya na makalimutan pa natin ang isa’t isa? Ilang taon na lumipas na ganito ang sitwasyon natin pero hindi parin tayo matinag. Matibay pa rin talga.
       Sa tibay nga nato inabot pa natin ang pagdadalaga mo. Oo. Dalaga ka na at Masaya ako kasi nagging parte ako ng growth and development stage mo :P Naging part din ako ng pagsisimula mo sa bagong stage. Hehehe. Pero seryoso (ahem), Masaya ako na kasama ka hanggang sa pag-graduate natin at kung hanggang san tayo aabutin. Alam mo naman yun lagi e, alam mo naman na na kasama ka lagi sa pangarap ko. Kahit na minsan nakakalimutan natin o nalilihis tayo ng way, meron namn lagging U-turn para bumalik kung meron ka/akong naiwan o maling nalikuan. Masaya ako kasi sa tagal na panahon na hindi tayo nagkikita, walang nagbabago sa pakikisama natin sa isa’t isa. Ay! May nagbago pala, mas naging close tayo sa isa’t isa. Mas madalas na tayong nagkukwentuhan, nagdadamayan, nagiiyakan, nagtatawanan at  ang favourite part natin ang magchismisan.

       Ikaw! Ikaw ang karamay ko pag naiinis ako, ikaw taga balance ng galit at hinahon sa akin, ikaw ang kasabay kong kinikilig pag usapang pag-ibig. Ikaw na! the best ka! :D Ano na lang kaya ako kung wala KA na sinasandalan ko? Walang Tart na naka sun na pagtumawag ako it takes time bago sagutin? Pano na lang kaya kung hindi kita nakilala? Edi hindi ko na lang rin alam. Siguro meron ibang taong gagawa ng ginagawa mo para sa akin, pero hindi katulad ng comfort nabinibigay mo sa akin. God Is Good (All the time!). Imagine, He gave you as a gift. A precious gift that shouldn’t be wasted, ignored or lost. Isa kang part ng jigsaw puzzle ng buhay ko, kaya kapag nawala ka, hindi kumpleto. Hindi kayang palitan n centrum ung maliit na piraso. Maliit pero malaki ang ipekto. Maswerte ako kasi nakilala kita. Maswerte ako kasi kahit na banas ka na minsan sa kakulitan ko o ka emo-han ko lately hindi ka naghehesitate na making kahit ang tagal mong nagreply sa texts ko. Alam kong gusto mo pa rin nmn talaga akong i-comfort at tulungan (patulong nga sa docu at program… hahah!). kaya kung meronng iba, hindi na ako lilingon sa kanila, anjan naman IKAW bakit pa?

       Hindi ako katulad ng ibang friends mo na ka-jive mo sa halos lahat ng bagay. Hindi din ako ung lagi  mong nakakasama sa Mcdo at kumakain ng French fries. Hindi mo rin ako nakakasama na kumanta kasabay ng gitara, o ni hindi rin ako ung taong kasama mo sa tindahan para bumili lang. Pero naiisip mo ba minsan n asana ako rin ung taong yun? Kasi ako, oo. Naiisip ko din na sana pagkakain ka sa mcdo kasabay mo ako kahit na tititigan lang kitang kumain ng fries. Kapag kumakanta ka kasama ung gitara, sana ako din ung ka duet mo para malabas ko na ung hidden talent ko kasabay mo. At kung naiinis ka na sa boses ko, tatawa na lang tayo sabay palo! Sana ako rin ung nakakasama mo sa mga lakad mo, mapa malayo man o malapit para hindi ako nahuhuli sa balita ng buhay mo. Para kahit papano marami akong alam sa nangyayari sayo, para pag may problema ka at nagtanong ako, ikukwento mo at hindi ung idadaan mo sa gm at pag nagtanong ako hihintay na lang ako ng sagot :( Masarap ang feeling kasi na hindi ako ung isa sa options ng sasabihan, kundi ako mismo ang sasabihan, kasama ng iba pang kaibigan. Kaya sana kahit isang lingo lang, pwedeng isa ako sa mga tao nay an.

       Salamat kasi nandyan ka lagi. Salamat sa efforts mo sa pagpapangiti sa akin. Salamat sa love, super nararamdaman ko un, salamat sa guidance lalo na pag tatange tange nnmn ako. Ngayon, na birthday mo, hindi mo man ako kasama ngayun. Wla man akong surprises para sayo, sana nafefeel mo yung everyday love ko for you. At alam kong dama mo din (kung hindi man, pasenxa..kulang na ata ung haba ng extension cord).
       And for your birthday, allow me to say my final words in this letter,

       I may not be the first person to come when you are in trouble, but I vow to be the last person standing next to you. I may not be the first one you will open-up with, but I will be the last person who eager to listen. I may not be the person you laughed with, but I will always wear this smile for you.





Friday, July 8, 2011

It is how things goes

If you could spell the word B-U-S-Y seems so easy but never will be its meaning.
If you could spell the word S-T-R-E-S-S seems to be nothing but very ironic of what does it implies.

I spell those words so hard right know. School had just started, actually we haven't took the preliminary exam for this semester, but then schools works seems to be as hard as projects of finals. But that isn't really it. Final projects are harder than any man could think. I had sacrifice lots of things just to comply with the standard of being a 3rd year student. I should have sacrifices, of course! But not all should be sacrificed ones.

I am having sleepless nights, though I take a nap that leads to deep sleep :D. I am having a hard time fighting for my eyes to close, but then it still need to (sorry to my poor eyes). I have tried all the sitting position that is comfortable, but still ends up with lying in my bed is the best position. I mostly skipped meals, but once I eat, you could never know how to define it.

Sweets are my turning back, yet can't have this late night. I am craving for apples, but where could I have those? I drink hot chocolate but it makes me feel more sleepy. I avoid the coffee but still in the last list of my options to take.

I should be posting entries in my blog, yet I forgot. Just give me a week of free from stress, I could post a good entry. But then, my mood is the last thing to decide if I will make one or not

Good Morning People. I've been seeing the Sun and the moon changes :)

Monday, June 20, 2011

Here them say...

"Just leave without any words to keep, get lost without me knowing it. With that, it is easier to accept that you're gone than hearing your goodbye wherein I know I could do something for you to stay."

People are afraid to lose the things they have but they are not mindful of how will they give importance to it. They are afraid of being alone but couldn't interact well with their friends. We don't want to have what we hate but we are doing the opposite. We accept love and get blinded, but we do not accept the pain it'll bring. We do receive the things that we demanded or given, but we do not know how to give thanks. Once we feel pleasured, we do not mind whatever be the consequences. We know how to accept, but not all the things we should accept.

"Just leave without any words to keep, get lost without me knowing it.

He may leave without leaving his footsteps so she won't follow him. It's hard to see him walk away and could not stop him. Yesterday was perfect but today is broken and tomorrow will always be a dream. Where will she prefer to stay? He may go without telling anything something to hold on. It is very hard to let go, and so hard to move forward when she's still hoping. But how would she suppose to go through if she's the only one thinks of what would be better and the other left her behind. It hurts right? But what else can she do? Give another chance? Chance that will be wasted soon. Things don't work out so why trying to fix the broken glass? It may sound negative but try to look on the other side, deep down yourself. He left her for reason; not for her to feel pain and wasted, but for her to find someone better. She might fail at first but she wouldn't know if she'll stop trying.

---> If I could vanish you in my memory in a zap, I will. If could erase all those words you said, I'll do so things will be back in zero. So I will not think of you everyday. So I will remember you no more. If I could only turn back the time, I will be more careful. But then, I won't wish for that anymore, because if I will have the past in my hands, there will still be the same future. But then, thank you. You hit the goal, and I stroke thrice and get out of the field. I had enough, enough lessons from you. But in the end, I couldn't close my doors, since you left without any words of confirmation.
- Mind

Be forgiving and hopeful, but learn not to trust easily; You won't be numb as what you wished.

Pain will never heal if you continue to give so much attention to it. It won't cast by time if you never learn how to forgive. You might get tired of things but never with loving and forgiving. Forgive those who hurt you, forgive those who curse you, but then learn your lessons. Do not trust that fast if you are protecting your heart. Do not trust others if you are not brave enough to love again, but never ever close your doors of opportunity to meet people and the chance to know who will really stay. Time will challenge them all and in front of you, you will see who will be the last man standing. You do not have to witness all, you do not need to experience all sorrow to be wise. Most of the time, those who are intelligent have the most fragile heart. You could be stupid if you need to but you can't be numb as much as you wanted to. 

---> Close your eyes and let me feel what is really true. Make me happy with love and cry with scars. I do not have the best mind so never ever teach me to be in love and to forget, but I have the best heart to love and forgive. I get afraid to try again, but I am not numb as long as I beat. I do the  things that should be done and never been commanded  by anyone. Though questions flow in the mind, there will still be one heart to decide, decide of who will be the best one.

All I might witness isn't true, because sometimes lies are more visible than what I should know. I might see things in positive, everything in light, but I should also know that it would not last. Positives may turn to negatives, and light may be dark. Lies are everywhere, lies hide the truth. Big things sometimes turn out fake, and things that I do not notice are really the great ones. I can never know the worth just by seeing it, but by not seeing the world and feel. I set my standard but never set what to decide. 
- Eyes

All I might hear makes you happy but not all would last forever. Some fades and blow by the wind. Not all promises I heard came true. Promises are meant to be broken if it is said without meanness. It will fade if someone do not work it out. But then, I should know that I should not hold on with what I just heard, because not all comes out from the mouth are with sincerity. 
- Ears

All I might hold is mine but most are things you need to let go. I cannot grab what's in  front of me if it isn't mine. I can't just hold it tight. There is something that is really done for me. Someone  for me to hold on. He will fill the spaces between my fingers and locked it forever. So I should never be selfish and demand of all the things I wanted to have. I only have two hands to hold on, all that is too much should be let go. It isn't about how many things I have with me, but how much does it do in me.

And things will fall back in the right place that you always dreamed of, if you would only here them say...

If you would only look deeply in yourself...

*And night falls that I am left confuse, hurt, betray, fool, and alone and have it all for so many times. But still I know now what to do, and it will never be the same thing I did before. I am used to of what you always show me and make me feel. And so I should be used of what would be the next. Again, you never say goodbye... 

Monday, June 6, 2011

The prize of the Untold

Sa phone.

Milo: Mia! (super excited) I have some—Oh? Bakit ka umiiyak?

mia: Friend. I don’t get it. Why things fall this way? He’ll be gone for good with somebody else. :’((( (sniff sniff)

milo: Ano ka ba?! Hindi naman dapat iyakan yan. People come and go. Pero it doesn’t mean it’s the end of the world. Maraming iba dyan.

mia: No milo!. It is' He's my world. (huhuhu)

milo: Stop it mia! Ang O.A na.

mia: No! I am not being o.a milo. I guess I have to leave for good. Just to accept things and move forward.

milo: You don’t have to go anywhere. You just need a company. Asan ka?

mia: No need milo. Ready na ang papers ko.

milo: Papers? Heck no! Asan ka? Pupunta ako!

mia: nasa Condo. ciao ciao!

milo: No! mia! (mia hanged up)

(operator: You are out of load plea----)

milo: Bakit ba ngayon pa ako nwalan ng lod. DARN!

Sa Condo.

milo: Mia! Mia! ansan ka?

(May na pansin siyang note sa table)

As you read this, I am on my way to airport. I’m leaving and I’m going to US now. At first I don’t have any plans to go because of you, but at the day you told me about the ring that you will give to the girl you admire, it really breaks my heart. I love you since the day we became close to each other. Hindi ko lang sinabi sayo kasi you keep on telling me about this girl you met na talagang gustong gusto mo. Until the day you said na nagiging ok na kayo. Sorry. But I won’t be back anymore. Good luck sa inyong dalawa. Wish you all the best :’).


Milo: Mia…(Crying) I have something to tell you… I love you since I saw you when we were in high school. Blessing nung naging close tayo. I might look to others but it always turns to you. This really meant for you. I told you about this because I wanted to know of what’s you’re point about the ring. Pero iba pala naging dating. Tonight. Mag coconfess na sana ako. And I wanted to be here surprisingly. But you were crying. Sorry. Soryy kung hindi ko agad sinabi. :’((((

Thursday, May 26, 2011

memoirs remember to forget

A house burnt on fire of anger and hatred,
A home crashed down by selfishness.
The man you loved had betrayal.
The woman you praised had lies.

A jaded heart that soon be ashed
A covered face by the mask of unhappy man.
All the hurt and pain inside
that keeps one teary wearing a smile.

A soul that is a believer
turned to have shattered hope and faith.
Left behind with broken promises,
Nothing in existence but vengeance.

A memoir that remembers to forget,
But couldn't without forgiveness.
Spoonful of acceptance should be eaten,
Before grudges munched you with your memoirs

the cycle

Night falls, sun rises, earth revolves, rain pours,
and the stars twinkle, so my eyes glow.
Flowers bloom, birds chirp, wind sways,
and the whole nature sing - a - long.

So beautiful, so good, so refreshing
how you see love moves the mountains.
Everyday it continues to grow,
You already know where things fall.

Yesterday is a history, today is a gift,
and tomorrow is a dream, to see the caterpillar flying.
You can't add more colors for the painting,
You can't wish more of what is not in the drawing.

Mountains must be high, trees must be green.
Love must be real, the love that you feel.
Roses are red, skies are blue,
You can't change what is real, of what you wanted it to be.

And the world must not be changed by forced
and you should go with the flow,
because you shouldn't expect what you want,
but be greatful to have what you don 't expect

Sunday, April 24, 2011

goal to hundredth

less than 2 months from now, my blog will celebrate its second anniversary...
and currently, i have 92 posts of blogs here...

and for its 2nd anniversary...I am looking forward for its 100th and 101st posts :)

works of different stories, poems, themes, messages and visions...

i hope for the following 8th, 9th 10th, or more blogs to post...
you're still with me and my blogs, reading...

thank you....


Friday, April 1, 2011

my summer..

how will you find my summer?
boring or not?
am i super studious or occupied?

why did i ask you those? simply because of my plans that i am hoping to accomplish just for two months.
semester is ending and my i am ready to open my windows to feel the breeze of summer..
and for the summer, i want to have the following:

  • Clean my room. Have my room a groom. it's been 5 months and more that i haven't swept all the corners of it and i feel so ashame knowing that it is a room of a 18 year - old girl :P. besides, it isn't timely having a Halloween in the middle of the summer. 

  • Enroll my summer classes. I don't want my summer to be a waste so it is really a good thing to enroll summer classes. i get bored in our house for sure so better have something to get busy about. another thing, i still have my allowance :) Also, i could encounter more people and include to my circle of friends or circle of acquaintances perhaps. 

    • Find a summer job. It is quite tough having my classes and having a job at the same time. but this is just a plan firs. i'm still searching for one and i hope i could have the consent of my parents. and i really wish for that. If i find one, i know and i believe i could manage it *crossing my fingers
    • Out of town with the family. I should know how to unwind from all this load. I wanted to go somewhere else, really far from manila with my whole family. enjoy the whole ambiance and eat delicious delicacies. And my target place, CEBU... I've heard that CEBU is really a beautiful place. :3

    • Bond with my friends. There is already scheduled outing for that, somewhere in pansol, laguna, and i am really looking forward that my dearest parents will allow me to go. it is an overnight swimming sponsored by my two dearest friends, except our transpo (and its not bad). *crossing my fingers again 

    • Ready myself for the next school year (advance reading). I learned so many lessons this sem and i should use it as a good preparation for next sem. I should have advance reading with my programming subjects, and all! hehehe...I hope my mood won't block me for this plan. :P
    So many plans to accomplish, so many plans to deal with. I am looking forward of a colorful and meaningful 2 months of vacation. :P

    Wednesday, March 30, 2011

    there's always rainbow after the rain...

    what it feels like accomplishing all the problems that block you from the happiness of life?

    after a the hell month in school, i slept for about 8 hours and more...
    the right span of time to sleep that i almost forgot.
    and after the hell month, i can now do the things i set aside.

    this sem teaches me alot bout what it really is in college, and now, i could say that i should be more prepared of what to have next sem. i should be very ready of my course. and after 2 more years, i'll welcome myself to the real life in the industry..

    but before i assume of the graduation, i should assume first on my 3rd year in college.
    Life is not that easy that should be taken for granted, but never put it in the complications.
    troubles makes you weak, but that weakness could be use as a strength. the strength that you will use to accomplish your goals...

    and after i finish this post ad have a good night sleep later,

    all i wanted to say is....

    "TOMORROW is another DAY to enjoy my life as a TEENAGER!" :D

    Thursday, March 10, 2011

    Personality test #2

    Here is the analysis:

    • You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

    • You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
    • You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
    • Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
    • Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
    another test.

    Personality Test #1

    I found this link from a friend, and I tried.
    Most of the results  really reflect me. Well, I enjoyed this personality test :P

    Your view on yourself:
    Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

    The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
    You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

    Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
    You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

    The seriousness of your love:
    Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

    Your views on education
    Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

    The right job for you:
    You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

    How do you view success:
    You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

    What are you most afraid of:
    You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

    Who is your true self:
    You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

    Wednesday, February 9, 2011

    The Cookie

    In just one bite, what you feel will change...

    Untie the Lace

    Untie the Lace

    Before you grab and munch one,
    You have to untie the lace on top.
    You have to open to get what you crave for
    You have to open it and share with the one you dear most.

    Before you hear the story,
    Before you criticize things,
    Open your heart and mind first,
    Of what this Cookie could share to you, to others.

    In my mind, I voiced

    From the other world, I tried different,
    I went to a new one, a new life to begin.
    New faces, new environment,
    I don’t know where my heart should be placed.

    I am a guy who seeks for some change.
    Change that will be so hard at first,
    Change that I really don’t expect,
    As I see someone that I never thought I will love

    I am like the other guys; I easily bond with friends,
    But I indifferent of what I feel inside,
    You would know my story as you start,
    By the way, I am Jin, Rainer Jin to be exact.